Friday, November 14, 2014
I had the privledge of holding the hand of one of the greatest men I have ever known as he walked into heaven to meet Jesus on Wednesday night. My granddaddy was one of the most special people I have ever known! As I drove three hours back home Thursday morning I had a lot of time to think about all the things that made him special!And to think about How that makes me want to live my life. My granddaddy was a kind, patient, forgiving and most of all FUN man. I have the absolute best memories with him. More than I can write. He always made me feel like I was so special to him. When I was little, he never denied a request to go outside and play with my sister and I when he came to visit. When he came to visit Tennesse, my sis and I were prepared. With shovels....For some reason, I have no idea why, we found it extremely fun to dig holes outside..My granddad found this amusing, so he told us we were digging to China. So every time he came to visit, we got out the little shovels. And he sat outside for hours with us, digging to China, and making us laugh with silly songs and stories. He was the best comics reader. He always made them so interesting and I would beg for another story. He made the best pumpkin pie and knew how much I loved them. So always he would have one for me when he knew I was coming to visit. He later taught me how to make them, although I could never do it like granddaddy. He knew I loved his gourds he grew, and every fall he had some waiting for me.He played backgammon with me, which I admit I never really understood. Still don't lol....basiscally he played both sides of the game, because I just moved where he told me.Then I would tease him when he won, saying. YOu told me to move there. Lol.His basement was a fascinating place and he always let me explore everything there and would tell me what the stuff down there was for. He was a man of habit for sure, and always ate the same cereal the same way every day. Any time I came to visit I knew I would have my cereal fixed for me and waiting with an orange beside it when I woke up...Special K flakes, honey wheat germ, and fiber one made for an amazing combination. HE was silly and loved to laugh and play. some of my favorite recent memories was him playing cars with my son Alex. Here was a 90 year old man getting down close to the floor to play cars with Alex. He would also play checkers with alex and would fascinate Alex with stories from growing up and old cars. He played with me,and was still playing with my kids even right to the end of his life. I think that is where I got my love of fun. My granddad left quite a legacy and made me think of what my great grandchildren might say about my legacy someday. He was an incredible daddy to my mommy, and a extremely loyal faithful husband who doted on my grandma. I fully believe it is because of this my mom would not settle for anything less than the best in a husband.Her daddy was a great example, so she picked the best. My daddy! ANd my daddy was the best which led me to not want to settle for anything less than the best, and I got to marry my incredible husband todd. I fully believe that is a direct affect of what kind of man my granddaddy was. Also he was a true servant. He was delivering meals on wheels to the litt le old ladies, he would grin and say..When he was 80 plus!!!!And it brought him such joy.Wow!HE loved to serve others. My mom learned that from him and now she is that way. Hopefully someday people will say that about me too. Grandaddy was a loving forgiving man. He had some life circumstances that could have left him bitter and hard hearted, but he was the opposite of that. HE was loving and forgiving. He left a legacy!I want to leave a legacy too!
Sunday, October 12, 2014
everyone is asleep in my house right now..I am snuggling my little Abbi and having my own little glory Jesus time..Complete with hot coffee and wrapped up in my snuggie. nothing better.And Jesus has burdened my heart to share something up until now I have not been able to share.However I feel someone needs to hear..So hear goes. 2013 was hard!!Very hard.Between my dads cancer and my families little encounter with the deer(being sarcastic lol)that led to Icu and hospital stays for two people I love more than anything..I was ready for 2014 to come!So in November when Todd and I found out we had been blessed with a new life I was overjoyed.What a great joy to celebrate in the midst of one of toughest years of my life. on June 20 of this year we got to meet this Joy..My heart exploded when Abigail Grace Humbert was put on my chest..What a joy.Perfect an beautiful in every way..All was right with the world.Some struggle with transition to three but I was having time of my life. fast forward two months..We had very exciting news.God had called us to a very new season in life.To leave our home of 9 years..Our beloved church where Todd was on staff.His job of 8 years.And move to Cleveland Tn to be resident director of married student housing at Lee University..has anyone packed to move with a 6 year old,two year old tornado and a 2 month old..to say I was tired was probably an understatement. and then.......It happened.A night I will never forget!My hubs was downstairs with two year old tornado and 6 year old boy..I had freshly bathed abbi and dressed her in her snugly pjs for night.was walking downstairs with my snugly joy to do a bath handoff and wash hope..at the stair right above landing I tripped...and out of my arms Abbi went flying and landed face first in front of my hubs.It happened so quickly neither Todd and I could do anything to stop it..I will never forget the look of my baby face first on the ground.it makes me sick to my stomach.Time slowed down and yet moved quickly from there..911 was called.faithful aunt nenn was called to come..my little 6 year asking me is abbi dead?my little hope crying with strange police and fire fighters and ambulance there. for the second time in my mommy life I found myself riding in back of ambulance and heard them say..Turn The Lights On.I already knew that meant this is serious..life threatening. I will never be able to explain looking at a picture of your babies head with a skull fracture...hearing bleeding on the brain..Hearing we are admitting your once perfect baby to Icu..there are no words to describe that night...then there was the visit at 230 in the morning in the ICU from child protective services interviewing you and your hubs and calling into question your parenting. when I became a mommy in August of 2008 that became my calling.my passion.To be a mommy...I truly believe one of the ways Satan comes to attack us is steal,kill,and destroy our calling.To tell us we are not enough..Give up.You can never make an impact.You are not good enough..You really think you can make an impact?.... The moment Abbi fell.The lies and shame came hard..And fast...That moment in the ICU after DCS left...I really thought I was just done for.The lies and shame were o deep..so crushing I felt I couldn't stand.And they continued to pour in for the days after.. I say all this to say..I couldn't stay in that place.God has called me and empowered me to be a mommy!So I pressed into Jesus.Asked him to remind me of his calling.His empowerment.Clung to truths such as 1Thes.5:24 faithful is He who calls You.Trust Him and He will do it!Eph 2:10 He has good works prepared in advance for Me to Do!Eph 1:18-19.I can walk in the hope of my calling..knowing I do it with same power that raised Jesus from the dead! I am still battling through..asking God daily.Minute by Minute to choose truth over lies!To walk in my calling..as inadequate as I am for the task..Will you join me in battling for truth.To walk in your calling!
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
it has been far too long since I have posted a blog.Not because I think I have anything earth shattering and exciting to say but because it is a great way to record ,y daily life to look back on in a few years and say wow..Time moves so fast..and I don't want to miss one minute of what God has planned for us. well this post is about strange answers to prayers.I am so thankful that God hears our hearts and Nasir's our prayers in better and sometimes more unusual ways than we can imagine! so I am at the very large and uncomfortable stage of pregnancy lol..exhibit a.. I have found myself in the last month wishing time to go by faster....dreaming of not being pregnant anymore and holding baby abigail in my arms.Wanting time to hurry hurry hurry so it didn't feel like every thing took so much effort. I have found myself short on patience with my two lovely little ones, and praying bedtime comes quickly so I can just rest. However the Lord had been working on me to change my perspective.To remind me that this time only happens once. I only have this day this day to do what God has called me to today! No matter how much energy or effort it takes. I only have this day to have a amazing energetic, superhero loving crazy funny five year old and a mischevious, climbing, hilarious chasing after her little brother all day 20 month old So I prayed a simple quick prayer. Lord, help me enjoy this time. Not rush through it..Spend these days in your presence basking in what you have planned for me each day. The only short time left we have to be a fam of 4.ANd God answered in the most unusual, Eph 3:20 more than I could imagine way..By giving my awesome son the chicken pox..I know it sounds crazy!Thursday morning my little man woke up crying and saying mommy I am itching and my belly hurts...sure enough..little man was covered in little itchy red bumps...we marched straight to the doctor...Lol..Alex has had both chicken pox vaccines..The docs said..Well this never happens. This is so unusual..We never see this when you get the vaccines...Ha. We never do things the normal way.ButGod!!!He knew this was part of his special answer to my prayer..You see..Chicken pox is contagious. In fact, I feel like we had the plauge. we were ushered out the back door hehhe..And told he would be contagious for 3 to 5 days.. Why am I seeing this as a good thing? as a blessing?Because it slowed our lives down for 5 days!And it was some of the best family time ever. We could not go anywhere, not even on walks with our friends or playdates at the playground. So I had 5 days of focused time at home with my kids.And it was such a blessing!Thankfully Alex was unaffected by chicken pox besides being itchy. He has as much energy and wanting to play as ever. we had the best 5 days playing outside in our sand table, playing in little blue little tikes pool in the driveways, blowing bubbles, playing superheros!And I asked God to help me enjoy every minute. NOt to hurry one moment along. God was so faithful to answer that prayer! He really gave me the chance to SLOW down and see The blessings he had for me to come alive in the NOW. Todd was able to spend so much time with us this weekend and we had a blast playing in sprinkler and our tiny little pool. I even kidnapped Jenn for the day and night, and between her and todd and my little amount of help we were able to complete my nesting project of changing my room and alex and hopes room. I was so happy with the final product.Ok, by the way, it wasn't a little project.but jenn and todd did all the work lol.these past few days were such fun family time I didn't even stop to get any pics. we were just busy enjoying life together. I am so glad the Lord answered my prayers in a crazy way...Through the chicken pox..And God wants to answer your prayer in a crazy way too..And slow your life down. No matter what you feel you are hurrying through life to do...ask God to slow you down and help you enjoy where he has you now.....